Its been rough these past couple weeks when it comes to staying on track and making sure that I follow this regiment to the fullest... especially because I feel as tho' something great is gonna come from this... My eating habits have changed alot and its easier for me to pace myself and eat the correct foods NOW that I have learned the right way to eat and how to eat... and Portions to which I thought was gonna kill me... My meals are great.. especially the greatest invention ever... the veggies in a bag aka Steamers....but!!! the temptation lies or comes into play when I get self doubt or when something happens that puts me in a mood known as the " Idongivaphuk " I mean I feel as if I shouldnt be places [ work ] ... and dont wanna deal with anyone including everyone especially my GF.
The arguments and the Bullshat that I go through in my personal life as well as the Ignorant people I deal with at work.. and Im not talking patients Im talking my staff these Nurses[ Grey ] and Doctors... all of this pushes me towards the edge of Idongivaphuk ville... and all the temptations of this place including GIVING UP on my Ultimate goal... I mean I used to be like as soon as I get paid Ima get Pizza, a Jims cheese steak, some WAWA roast beef, and Ching... and everyone knows that they my people... but Nowadays even when I can get all of these things that used to suppress my pain and anger and feelings I think about the bigger picture ... and thats me being an even bigger FAT AZZ... and thats what I cant live with because a day may come where Im single and I need to be the best I can be to deal with being alone... bcus thats my 1 fear in life... being alone with someone to depend on in more ways than 1...
The one positive thing that helps me get by each day is Music... as cliche as that may sound It really relates to me on more ways than the average person
If I feel shaky with my relationship I listen to Bobby V.-I might not be... If Im in the mood to spoil my GF. I'll sing B.O.B.-Nothing on You .. If I wanna get hype or be in the Mood.. Blaqstarr and K swift... and If I need to get SPLASHY[ ps this term is copyrighted ] I listen to anything Drake has to say.... But on those days when I feel like giving up and quitting and cheating with Temptation I listen to Chris Brown.- I'll go... and Kid Cudi.- Soundtrack to my Life...
These may help you if u need a picker upper but besides that we should all be on the PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS I know I am ... so the Temptation didnt beat me or get the upper hand but it hit me hard.... Thank God ...literally for a strong will and His graces... besides that You know what time it is...
Hey Moon thanks for shining so brightly when I leave Whitney... U bring this Starr out like Pac-man did the celebs tonight
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