The Challenge.....

I plan on LOSING 50lbs. by May 1st. 2010..
The RULES....

Get back on my 30-30-30 DIET...
NO FAST FOODS... Homemade or Ordered
Get back in the Gym at LEAST 3x a week...
Basketball AMAP [ As much as Possible ]
and when I feel as though I wanna give up or give in
to this Disease watch Lebron footage or Rocky 1-5...

There will be pics at the end of this challenge showing you my progression through the months but they wont be put up until the end of the Competition...
I am 6 5lb weights + 2 10lbs.+ 2 25lbs. + 2 35lbs. +3 40lbs. + 2 45lbs.... and thats not good at all ... Its phukin horrible.. but LW as Nadege would say I will be where I want to be and a Perfect candidate for this Selective Surgery... Please Pray for me and if you are truly a friend of mine Help me rather than chastise me ...

The Rollercoaster Effect....

I really dont know what its called or how to identify what happens with out telling you the best way I can and that's by Keeping it real. I thought after the last post I was gonna be set and start to fight for what I wanted like I previously was doing... with this urge and need to fight was motivation that was brought on by my significant other... well its been a while since she gave me the motivation well extra motivation to go back to The Planet of Fitness and re-new my residency.. I mean I might get evicted for not being there the way I should be. My eating habits have turned for the worst in a sense of quantity and quality... I was a cheerios and wheat wrap guy for a while and I went back to Bacon and Eggs sandwiches and CHINESE FOOD!!!! I dont know what it is but that is my Achilles Heel/Cryptonite and I cant fathom not having it in my life...[ real fat ass... I know I need help bcus this is badd.. real badd Halle Berry] Personal family issues have led me to becoming upset and temperamental to the point where I can see me saying " Phuk this and going back to my old ways... ] but the thing that honestly keeps me from going back to those ways believe it or not is BASKETBALL and Lebron... The things I can do with basketball now as a fat-ass and The way the King gives his all for something that we both share the same passion for keeps me going... I know I will never ever make it to the Nba and that was never a realistic dream of mine.. but to be the best player I can be with my friends, brothers, leagues, and leisure time makes me yearn to become better... along with inspiration from Lebron saying DONT BE ME BE BETTER THAN ME !! all of this has led me to re-evaluate myself and figure out what the hell am i gonna do with my life... this weight... and my health... well Lent has come around and I was suppose to give up FAST FOOD... CHINESE FOOD.. AND BEING LAZY.. well I lost all 3 the second day in... Now Im hoping that God gives me another chance to rectify my wrongs and accomplish my goals and tasks at hand...
With that being said as of 8am. February 20th 2010 I will give up all those flaws for Lent as well as make a covenant to myself that If completed will re-assure my will in myself, GOD, and my Soul that I CAN BEAT THIS DISEASE known as Obesity....
So the next blog will let you know the details and if you so choose to read this then you can always help me to become what I need to be if we are truly friends... and if not well here is some good reading.....
PS Damn I just want my friend back.... bcus of the snow.. I havent gotten to see the Moon who always brings this STARR out... but I will rendezvous very soon... F23starr

My Ongoing Inspiration !!!

The Drought!!!!

Its been a while since Ive spoke of my habits... workouts.. and life changing experiences...& Its also been a while since I have been on my game .. and taking care of business.... Losing weight is the hardest thing in the world.... I wish I had to gain weight... that would take me a month and I would be set... but losing this curse that I have to bare... this Diseases... this sickness.. this gut-wrenching.... ailment that has led to negative thoughts about myself... depression... and a lack there of... has been the hardest thing to do... So how am I still losing weight???? Selective surgery will happen... I am a 1005 Pro asking for help and getting assistance towards something that CAN be done on your own but with help WILL be effective... Soooo I realized that I have been constantly losing weight... some weeks 5-10 lbs... some weeks 2 lbs. total... but the fact of the matter is ... IM LOSING WEIGHT,... the next time I go to see my Primary I expect her to be really Happy with me and see that Im not a FAT ASS.. and will work hard to get the best results I can for changing my life around...
My eating habits have changed big time.... There were times when I would be starving at 11:30-12 at night and go to WAWA and get food... on occasion I could go through 2 bags of candy before I go to sleep without hesitation... and Almost Always had to have a 1/2 gallon of juice to go to sleep with... I know FAT ASS..... but now thats changed... Candy ... about as rate as me buying something for myself... Late night Hoagies and WAWA runs... almost never... and Juice.. well I drink OJ.. which isnt the best.. but not to go to sleep with.. I will trash a bottle of water or 25 milk at any given notice....I eat around 2x a day... and its not even glut-full.... I mean its days when I dont eat and feel ok....
As far as the gym goes... I had a break through.... The most inspiration I can get in regards to going to the gym and being faithful comes from Limited or no PorkChop*... and wanting to have a body that I have been dreaming of for my whole life... Now Im not talking model type body or 2% fat type body... Im talking the type of body where I can go into H&M.... Macy's... or Neiman Marcus as I do now... but shop in the clothing section and not the ACCESSORIES/SHOE DEPARTMENTS....
With that being said I went through a SERIOUS DROUGHT!! I mean I wasnt going to the gym to work out.. I was being active and playing ball[ which had its up and downs .. but my stamina was there] butt I wasnt in the gym working out.... so 10 went by without touching a weight or getting on a treadmill.. and I had enough,... Complacency was starting to set in...and I was becoming a FAT ASS again when it all made sense to me and came to me in 2 big swoop... LIKE BEING SMACKED BY MARQUAN... My Bestfriend/Girlfriend/fiance/wife/life partner came over and thats when it happened... The day after my Birthday I decided to Not visit EARTH anymore.... and stay on The Planet of Fitness.....
So I left her behind and got on board my Spaceship and went back...
I worked out on Thursday @12-2:30 got a great workout in... massage.. and had my breakthrough,... I normally can go 2-3 minutes straight on the tread running before gasping for air... but this day I did 10 mins.... I mean if Lebron can get a dunk... then run down the court... block a shot... then run back up for an Alley-OOp... then chase down a defender and get a steal.. then shoot a 3 without breathing once.... then I can start running and not give up as soon as my chest starts beating.... WELL I DID IT AND IT FELT GREAT.... I LOVE THIS NEW ME.... JUST CAN WAIT FOR THE REPROCUSSIONS TO SHOW....

PS... I love the Moon sooooo much because its Helping this STARR to shine!!!!!!

When Reality Sets In!!!!

So The first week on this Planet I was grooving..... gettting back at it and going hard and I felt and saw the improvements within myself... I mean I got compliments but you are your biggest critic... Well After my weekly Intervention that was last posted... the very thing I WROTE about became a REALITY... It was a night where I wanted to do certain things that I realized I couldnt and it got me upset... Normally in the Past I would eat my problems away and go straight to sleep.... but I chose to get up at 12am.... and go to THE PLANETARIUM... to get it in... Throughout my workout...at times I wanted to give up... and just be complacent with what I thought was sufficient goals.. But I pushed past that... especially with the thoughts of me not being able to do what I wanted and the mear thought that My ULTIMATE CHANGE... would make me feel sooooo good... I kicked the Planetariums ASS big time.... Unfortunately that was the last time I went..and that was over a week ago... The fortunate thing for me is that I went to the Gym to test out this new body.... I was breathing better ... had more energy and moved alot better.... I was sweating that good sweat... along with better joint movement and less pain... All in All I felt great and was content and figured that the week I took off was good enough to get me by and Let my bones re-coperate before I really get into this strict diet and regime..... Well I think I passed the test and Im ready... This Sunday Night will Mark the beginning stages of this caterpillar [ PURPLE CATERPILLAR THAT IS] going into my metamorphis... I would ask for prayers... or Hope and Empathy from you guys.. but Honestly I dont want it.... I know what I have to do and it will get done.... By this STARR... THE LONE STARR....

PS SOOOOO THANKFUL FOR THE MOON... BCUS WHEN IM FEELING DULL OR BLAND THE MOON GLOWS AND HELPS ME SHINE!!!!

First Intervention ...Why Exercise saves my life....

Soooo Ive got some issues that only one person can see.... and all of those emotions were pouring out of me... THAT PERSON... made me feel unwanted at times... and as if I was a stranger in MY Relationship.... I know im not the best when it comes to satisying her in all aspects of our Relationship especially The serious ones... well the important ones to her...[ intimacy, love-making, communication,and Sacrifices....] Well I told myself that I need to get back to giving myself 100% of the best me I can be... and Honestly Working Out and Becoming A Healthy person is doing that... You might not be able to see the progress now But its not just the outside or Physical thats changing... its my MENTAL STABILITY... I have matURED so fast over these 3 weeks that I look up to myself... Now when I go through my situations... to which I still do.. I'm more prepared to deal with these issues... and Honestly Im not depressed... having anxiety attacks.. or feeling down about myself no more because I realized that I have alot to offer... and That if it comes down to it I can maintain on my own![ not that I want to be alone .. no one does but if so be it... I CAN MANAGE]... For those out there who read my blogs,.. Know that for some strange reason I have EXTENSIVE KNOWLEDGE. about alot of issues/things/problems that people go through everyday.. and I can help... With that being said I will leave this Intervention with a Personal Qoute....
Love yourself for ALL your Flaws... and work on your Perfections... because YOU are your Own biggest critic.. and Nobody is Perfect... but we can strive for Excellence.... STARR*

The first week is over... Now lets get it in....

With The week ending... Here are a couple pics of the most current Progress... as well as me being me before I get ready to enter the Planet of Fitness.... This first week has prepared me to be able to withstand anything and to be able to sustain this diet and new lifestyle...
The food intake as well as my exercising and Mental exercise has evolved and I feel really confident that with or WITHOUT selective Surgery I will do fine in losing the weight that I placed as a goal and Marked down as the Changing Point of My Life...
Exercising and being in the weight room has become an Outlet for me in the Sense that I can forget about everything and de-compress...
Ive noticed that I am able to wear certain clothes that I put towards the back of my closet and didnt look twice at... On Friday when I went to an Interview ..one of those shirts was put on and I felt great... This progress has changed me sooooo much and All I can think about is my Prayers and Worship of the Lord... and my will power... bcus temptation lives in MY MIND... and My Mental Block is up...
Workout... .Workout.... Workout... thats my life...
Pics up after the jump!!!! First Progress Pics...