My Ongoing Inspiration !!!

The Drought!!!!

Its been a while since Ive spoke of my habits... workouts.. and life changing experiences...& Its also been a while since I have been on my game .. and taking care of business.... Losing weight is the hardest thing in the world.... I wish I had to gain weight... that would take me a month and I would be set... but losing this curse that I have to bare... this Diseases... this sickness.. this gut-wrenching.... ailment that has led to negative thoughts about myself... depression... and a lack there of... has been the hardest thing to do... So how am I still losing weight???? Selective surgery will happen... I am a 1005 Pro asking for help and getting assistance towards something that CAN be done on your own but with help WILL be effective... Soooo I realized that I have been constantly losing weight... some weeks 5-10 lbs... some weeks 2 lbs. total... but the fact of the matter is ... IM LOSING WEIGHT,... the next time I go to see my Primary I expect her to be really Happy with me and see that Im not a FAT ASS.. and will work hard to get the best results I can for changing my life around...
My eating habits have changed big time.... There were times when I would be starving at 11:30-12 at night and go to WAWA and get food... on occasion I could go through 2 bags of candy before I go to sleep without hesitation... and Almost Always had to have a 1/2 gallon of juice to go to sleep with... I know FAT ASS..... but now thats changed... Candy ... about as rate as me buying something for myself... Late night Hoagies and WAWA runs... almost never... and Juice.. well I drink OJ.. which isnt the best.. but not to go to sleep with.. I will trash a bottle of water or 25 milk at any given notice....I eat around 2x a day... and its not even glut-full.... I mean its days when I dont eat and feel ok....
As far as the gym goes... I had a break through.... The most inspiration I can get in regards to going to the gym and being faithful comes from Limited or no PorkChop*... and wanting to have a body that I have been dreaming of for my whole life... Now Im not talking model type body or 2% fat type body... Im talking the type of body where I can go into H&M.... Macy's... or Neiman Marcus as I do now... but shop in the clothing section and not the ACCESSORIES/SHOE DEPARTMENTS....
With that being said I went through a SERIOUS DROUGHT!! I mean I wasnt going to the gym to work out.. I was being active and playing ball[ which had its up and downs .. but my stamina was there] butt I wasnt in the gym working out.... so 10 went by without touching a weight or getting on a treadmill.. and I had enough,... Complacency was starting to set in...and I was becoming a FAT ASS again when it all made sense to me and came to me in 2 big swoop... LIKE BEING SMACKED BY MARQUAN... My Bestfriend/Girlfriend/fiance/wife/life partner came over and thats when it happened... The day after my Birthday I decided to Not visit EARTH anymore.... and stay on The Planet of Fitness.....
So I left her behind and got on board my Spaceship and went back...
I worked out on Thursday @12-2:30 got a great workout in... massage.. and had my breakthrough,... I normally can go 2-3 minutes straight on the tread running before gasping for air... but this day I did 10 mins.... I mean if Lebron can get a dunk... then run down the court... block a shot... then run back up for an Alley-OOp... then chase down a defender and get a steal.. then shoot a 3 without breathing once.... then I can start running and not give up as soon as my chest starts beating.... WELL I DID IT AND IT FELT GREAT.... I LOVE THIS NEW ME.... JUST CAN WAIT FOR THE REPROCUSSIONS TO SHOW....

PS... I love the Moon sooooo much because its Helping this STARR to shine!!!!!!

When Reality Sets In!!!!

So The first week on this Planet I was grooving..... gettting back at it and going hard and I felt and saw the improvements within myself... I mean I got compliments but you are your biggest critic... Well After my weekly Intervention that was last posted... the very thing I WROTE about became a REALITY... It was a night where I wanted to do certain things that I realized I couldnt and it got me upset... Normally in the Past I would eat my problems away and go straight to sleep.... but I chose to get up at 12am.... and go to THE PLANETARIUM... to get it in... Throughout my workout...at times I wanted to give up... and just be complacent with what I thought was sufficient goals.. But I pushed past that... especially with the thoughts of me not being able to do what I wanted and the mear thought that My ULTIMATE CHANGE... would make me feel sooooo good... I kicked the Planetariums ASS big time.... Unfortunately that was the last time I went..and that was over a week ago... The fortunate thing for me is that I went to the Gym to test out this new body.... I was breathing better ... had more energy and moved alot better.... I was sweating that good sweat... along with better joint movement and less pain... All in All I felt great and was content and figured that the week I took off was good enough to get me by and Let my bones re-coperate before I really get into this strict diet and regime..... Well I think I passed the test and Im ready... This Sunday Night will Mark the beginning stages of this caterpillar [ PURPLE CATERPILLAR THAT IS] going into my metamorphis... I would ask for prayers... or Hope and Empathy from you guys.. but Honestly I dont want it.... I know what I have to do and it will get done.... By this STARR... THE LONE STARR....

PS SOOOOO THANKFUL FOR THE MOON... BCUS WHEN IM FEELING DULL OR BLAND THE MOON GLOWS AND HELPS ME SHINE!!!!

First Intervention ...Why Exercise saves my life....

Soooo Ive got some issues that only one person can see.... and all of those emotions were pouring out of me... THAT PERSON... made me feel unwanted at times... and as if I was a stranger in MY Relationship.... I know im not the best when it comes to satisying her in all aspects of our Relationship especially The serious ones... well the important ones to her...[ intimacy, love-making, communication,and Sacrifices....] Well I told myself that I need to get back to giving myself 100% of the best me I can be... and Honestly Working Out and Becoming A Healthy person is doing that... You might not be able to see the progress now But its not just the outside or Physical thats changing... its my MENTAL STABILITY... I have matURED so fast over these 3 weeks that I look up to myself... Now when I go through my situations... to which I still do.. I'm more prepared to deal with these issues... and Honestly Im not depressed... having anxiety attacks.. or feeling down about myself no more because I realized that I have alot to offer... and That if it comes down to it I can maintain on my own![ not that I want to be alone .. no one does but if so be it... I CAN MANAGE]... For those out there who read my blogs,.. Know that for some strange reason I have EXTENSIVE KNOWLEDGE. about alot of issues/things/problems that people go through everyday.. and I can help... With that being said I will leave this Intervention with a Personal Qoute....
Love yourself for ALL your Flaws... and work on your Perfections... because YOU are your Own biggest critic.. and Nobody is Perfect... but we can strive for Excellence.... STARR*

The first week is over... Now lets get it in....

With The week ending... Here are a couple pics of the most current Progress... as well as me being me before I get ready to enter the Planet of Fitness.... This first week has prepared me to be able to withstand anything and to be able to sustain this diet and new lifestyle...
The food intake as well as my exercising and Mental exercise has evolved and I feel really confident that with or WITHOUT selective Surgery I will do fine in losing the weight that I placed as a goal and Marked down as the Changing Point of My Life...
Exercising and being in the weight room has become an Outlet for me in the Sense that I can forget about everything and de-compress...
Ive noticed that I am able to wear certain clothes that I put towards the back of my closet and didnt look twice at... On Friday when I went to an Interview ..one of those shirts was put on and I felt great... This progress has changed me sooooo much and All I can think about is my Prayers and Worship of the Lord... and my will power... bcus temptation lives in MY MIND... and My Mental Block is up...
Workout... .Workout.... Workout... thats my life...
Pics up after the jump!!!! First Progress Pics...

Day 5... Jan 6th..2010....

Soooo I have noticed that working out when you are dead azz tired has its up and downs.... For one it builds up your muscle faster and makes you more Proactive...
By working out when you are tired... you kick start your muscles and get them going right away... The other positive is that if you were tired throughout the entire day ..say from working an A shift... you will have the energy you need to get by the rest of the day.... Now to the downside.... The workout will take its effect on you after you take a good shower and finally sit down and rest your body.... MORE than Likely you will take a nap... its inevitable... The other downside is the feeling of ZOMBIE-ITIS... I mean Im all about eating healthy now and I know that eating after 9:30 is out the question but around 10:30-11pm... but its all about Muscle Confusion and health... right... RIGHT...

NOW on to the workout... I decided to workout my arms today.. and Boy did I...
Accompanied by My brother Sean aka Shiz aka Somebody's Daddy..
I started out with a good stretch.... and then worked my way over to the Calf raise machine... Got a good workout with that ,,, and I can see the improvements... [ LEBRON JAMES LEGS]... after that I took it to the Bench Press.... 3 sets almost killed me but I did the whole M.C. thing [ Muscle Confus.] and it worked...
I then went into my Push and Pull 3 sets.. followed that up with Calf raises... then finished up my arm workout with... Curls...Lap pulldown.. interior and exterior.. tricep reverse curls... and free weight curls w/ calf raises... after all of that I felt is though I had the arms of KIMBO SLICE... lol.. I felt good .. then I exercised my mind..and body by getting a massage and reading over some Notes.. as well as talkin SNEAKA talk with my Brother...
Today was a good day and I know that I will feel it in my arms Tommorrow when Im at work.. but hey its worth it...
Until the Next time....
Ps I love the MOON... bcus it brings this STARR to life....

Day 4.... Jan. 5th 2010

I GOT LOOSE!!!!!!!
In the gym today Progression was made something big.... Maybe it was because my yungin Ricky Ricardo... of FSA.... got his Space Shuttle ticket to the Planet of Fitness/Universe of Buffness... or maybe it was because of the stress building up in my life that I know Working out will take my mind off... Dont really Know but what I am certain of is " I GOT-IT Innnnnnnn!!!!!"
Treadmill Nothing.... took that in stride.. while dreaming of a better future... so the time flew...
Stretching was a piece of cake...
Legs,Calves... wasnt what I wanted but I can feel the burn and the growth.. guess this rust is finally off...
Arms/Chest and back NOTHING!!!! had people starring at cha boi... [ side note... this old head did the craziest Bench Press I ever seen... Marc once I learn that move... Im at your neck... But all in all I felt great leaving the gym... now this same night I went through it again around 3am.. If I didnt have to be at work by 6:30am I wouldve went back to the gym BUT!!!!!! U know it is what it is...

Ps I love the MOON... he my best friend... He always brings this STARR OUT!!!!!!