i came to the realization that i can do alot of things by myself/on my own but if God isnt involved completely, then begging him for help and wondering when its gonna pay off is irrelevant. with that being said the " covenant " that i was on i stayed strong with and realized alot of things including peoples perception of me and what they think of me and how strong willed i can be in regards to making sacrifices and sticking to them, but i failed bcus of a few reasons.... temptation at the end of the covenant, and the lack of guidance.... i made this covenant on my own to prove ppl wrong and to myself to show that i am capable of doing things that ppl thought i couldnt... but the whole time i asked and begged and looked to God for help but until recently realized that i didnt start off the correct way... on my own i did good..... "but good is not enough" with God and through the correct outlets [ prayer, church, asking for help, and a commitment ] i couldve did great...
so now the old covenant that i did so good on... is null and void... but this new COVENANT made out of concrete and God's supervision will be GREAT.... and i will actually surpass my goals...
this new covenant will be made Sunday April 11th at Church whether outside of Hup or inside [ hopefully and i strongly want it to be outside ] and it will be made through God and with his supervision....
My goal.
Lose ___ lbs. so that I can be at the weight of 3__ by July 11th... this goal may seem astronomical or un-reachable but honestly all i can do is my part physically and not be a PhAT AZZ and leave the Spiritual stuff up to the man upstairs.... I know one thing... im really gonna try and reach this goal... before i go for my selective surgery.... [ hearing ya girlfriend.. the woman you want to spend the rest of ya life with... talk about other mens bodies....[ although celebrities but thats not the point] can hurt a man especially when it has been verbally said that she wishes that her boyfriend had a better body]... and not only do i want to do it for my relationship but for MYSELF the most... i want to be able to shop at H&m and buy True Religion jeans... { i know rediculous aspirations} but they mean alot to me bcus its something that i want...
So Hopefully everything will fall into place and work out for me... Sunday will be the beginning of the Re-construction of Gary Baker.... Mind body and soul....
Hey Moon, where you been????? the sun is trying to take all your shine... luckily for me Im a candle ...and I only can glow when your out....
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